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Monday, August 11, 2008

Yes this is dumb.A diarrhoea attack on my semestral exam day which is today.

Of all the days of all the time I have in my life why today.WHY MUST IT BE IN THE MORNING?!

I guess it must be the 'eating fest' that I had on saturday that makes my tummy rumbled and grumbled.

But not to worry cos I've asked tan khee soon if I could retake and he says most prolly I could.

It was quite a relief after he emailed me back and said that.PHEW!

I can't really sleep these cos my neck and my back are coiling like springs and my eyes are stinging in pain,badly.My head is filled with fears of life. Im just so afraid to wake up to face the fact of life but somehow Im glad that I could wake up to a new day and not die in my sleep at least.

And sally, thks for the letter that you wrote for me. I just love the old school style of writing a letter.I'll sure reply in that channel too! =)

Well you said you have faith in me but I don't even have one for myself.I even have doubts for myself.

You ask me to eat A LOT cos we live only once but you yourself are finding a thousand and one excuse to not eat.

And you said that love is a way of happiness and it's also a battle field to find our rights to love.Which I really have no say to that.

You've always encourage me to enjoy life and to think in a positive way(although sometimes you don't.HAHA!). But I think whatever it is,Im just glad that you are there be it when im feeling high or low. sayang kau many many!

Although sometimes I feel very shitty but these are the fact of life that I must face.

Sometimes feeling too much of happiness makes me feel so insecure cos Im afraid that I can't even stand on my own feet's when unhappiness strikes.

I don't know how to feel and Im still skeptical of my feelings now.

and yes I am very EMO now as you can see!

okay Im off to emo-ing alone please.goodnight.